First time....

I guess this is considered my first blog....yeah....I'm late to the game. I did laugh at my husband for wanting to do it. Well, not really laugh but kind of teased him a little (in my loving way of course, heehee). But when do I not tease him? I know I get on his case way too much at times but I think it's my defense mechanism. I believe if I poke at him here and there, he won't see me as weak and he won't do what has been done to me before. I know, in my heart, he won't ever hurt me. But my brain is wired to believe that every man, outside of members of my family, will hurt me. Physically and emotionally. My brain is wired now to think if I appear strong and independent, no man will dare try to hurt me in that way ever again. He won't. I know he never will. But my scars wince at the thought of it happening again regardless of what reality is. Anyway, enough of that whiny babble....here I am....blogging. I thought it was so cliché, and it probably is. Eh, who cares anymore. I'm a mom of three beautiful kids, two girls, one boy. I am a full-time student with Penn State's online program, World Campus and an army wife, but not a "typical" army wife. Those who are military wives probably understand what I mean by that. If you're not a military wife or brat, then don't worry, I'm sure I'll dig into that later. Anyway, with all of this going on in my life, I figure maybe a blog would be a good way to release, well, myself in a way. Besides, every time I buy myself pens or pencils they mysteriously disappear, only to reappear dried out or broken in one of the kids' rooms, along with a baby doll or dressers decorated in a nice, blue ink.

NOTE: I had my third baby in April. I started posting this in January while I was pregnant with him but just barely got the chance to come back and finish it now....he's almost 4 months old. What? Things get hectic, I get distracted.